Kiss of Death

 7-17-22

Kiss of Death

Yesterday as I was getting ready for bed, I was scrolling on facebook when I found out that my 5th classmate( off of the top of my head) from high-school ( Shout Out To Class of 09) has died , he was more than a classmate passing in the halls, we rode the same school bus& were neighbors &we were in the same lit class as each other & possibly in graphic design. I don’t know how he died, but he was in his 30’s. I am sad that he won’t be able to watch his nieces grow up, or ever experience getting married & making babies. He would have made a great daddy. I am pissed off , because when my rapist was pleading the judge he needed open heart surgery I said why now, he refused to listen to doctors or his family about it, until now when it could help him delay the hearing. I boldly asked the Judge what happens if he dies on the table. The  Judge said confidently that he is younger than me, he will be okay. Well JLM, TBW, KB & EW& GC were all younger than me & they all died. It makes me want to scream, that age has nothing to do with when you die. Death doesn’t care, how many plans you have, or your goals & ambitions that you have set out to accomplish, death doesn’t care how much who you leave behind or how much pain the memory of you will bring to the ones you were close too. My friend who recently passed away was a son, a brother, an uncle, a friend & a musician. their is a qoute out there that says only the good die young. Obviously that is true because I have lost 5 classmates since we graduated in 2009. That doesn’t include the younger siblings or the class after us, who have died from falling off a cliff, to gettin shot by a best friend because they were playing Russian Roulette & thought the gun was unloaded , to someone being murdered & left to die in a ditch all because he was trying to get a friends engagement ring back from some robbers. Recently in the last few months we have lost a few great dad’s to the kiss of death but here my rapist is allowed to walk the streets freely, go to work where was taken away from cops in front of everyone , but once he made bail he went back to work as long as he doesn’t get on a plane& keeps his ankle monitor on. I would give anything to get a moment back with any of my classmates or my best friend who got murdered today a few years ago while she was volunteering in a local soup kitchen. 

I am gonna leave you with these questions and want you to take your time with the answers.

- What are your life ambitions?

- What are the top 3 places you wanna travel to, pick one place & book your flight

- Make a list of all the people you love & call them & tell them you love them today.

Grief is hard but we are stronger validate all your feelings & then let it go!

I can tell you right now, Life is too Damn Short & No one is promised tomorrow.  You got one life, live it to the fullest with no regrets. The only thing in life is that we are all going to die.